When You Entertain The Devil and Don’t Even Realize It..

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No this isn’t some spooky post to get you afraid of the “little red guy with horns and pitchfork running around chasing people”.. This is about something much more realistic.. Something that we ALL go through whether we’re aware of it or not and whether we believe it exists or not..

A little something called spiritual warfare..

Yes hun. God has a plan for your life and its a good plan. I can’t promise that the path will be easy… It will probably be a path that will challenge you but most importantly it will be a path that DEVELOPS you. Its a path that He wills for all His girls go walk in… A path of love, purity, self-denial, holiness, peace, joy, servanthood and light. Its a beautiful path to walk on once you find it by surrendering your life to Him.

Sounds great right?

There’s a flip side to it though.

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The Pretty Trash Can..

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Soooo… you have this friend. Every time you guys get together, she complains about this HORRIBLE smell coming from her apartment, not to mention there are tons and tons of fly’s EVERYWHERE. It’s making her sick and you have no idea what to say in response to her smelly fly problem other than “ew”…

A week later, you guys hang out but this time at her apartment. You notice a HUGE pile of trash in the middle of her living room and it all makes sense where her house “problems” are coming from. For some odd reason she doesn’t seem to realize that the PILE of trash is what’s SMELLING up the place and causing all of these maggots to spring up but instead of her cleaning up the mess, she steps out, goes to the 99cents store to pick up some air freshener and fly tape….

You just give her the blank stare…

This is an example of what A LOT of our lives look like. We complain and focus on the problems that stem from the trash that’s IN our hearts and instead of CLEANING up the trash through giving our hearts to Jesus and allowing Him to cleanse us, we just try to spray some air freshener on it instead of getting to the ROOT of the issue. We just try to put a little flin-stone band-aid on a wound that needs (more…)

The “Boaz” Myth…

The Boaz Myth

Can I be honest? There is NOTHING like being with a God fearing man.. A man who pushes you closer to Jesus every chance he gets.. A man who loves you flaws and all and whose commitment you never have to question.. Its SUCH a blessing to have your man be your biggest cheerleader& who wants nothing more than to see his lady be the woman that God has called her to be..

Its a gift. Its a blessing. But its not EVERYTHING..

Being in relationship can be ROUGH. Its not all sunshine, rainbows and lollipops.. The world portrays relationships as this wonderful merry go around that always ends up in a happily ever.. Unfortunately i feel like that same mentality has seeped into us (the church) and women think that by waiting on a God fearing man, its gonna be smooth sailing.. We OVER ROMANTICIZE meeting “our boaz” as though he’s gonna be a dark skinned Jesus, sent to make us whole and take all our pain away (or whatever your preference might be lol)..

But the truth is.. Godly relationships are ROUGH if not rougher..

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A Jesus Groupie Diaries: Fake Obedience…

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In late August I went on a retreat upstate with the young adults group from my church. As soon as I got off the bus I had a HUGE smile on my face! I was going to be in nature, surrounded by people my age, do fun actives, make new friends and worship like crazy! I had a “yeah let’s do this” kind of attitude!!! (woo hoo!) Fun Fun Fun…..

Then for some reason,  out of nowhere, I started feeling discontent and shaken. I wasn’t as confident nor as excited as I had been.

Service began, the band started playing and I hit a wall. My heart felt so hard. I was singing but the words were empty. I felt everyone around me raising their hands, singing with passion. Yet I stood still, hands down, lips still. I closed my eyes and cried out to God “Hello, don’t you see me? I’m here in the middle of nowhere, smack dab in the middle of these woods, searching for you! Why do I feel so far from you?” Frustrated, I stood there motionless. Fortunately, I waited long enough to hear God say “Darling, let go.” I knew exactly what he meant. Deep in my heart I was holding on to something that I didn’t want to let go of. I was living a life of disobedience of as I would like to call it… FAUXBEDIENCE. I was reading the Bible, praying, having conversation with God but I had hit a wall…. 

Having a relationship with Christ isn’t about going through the motions. It’s about being open WITH your emotions. God wanted me to dig deeper…Reading the Bible and going to church wasn’t all God wanted from me. He wanted me to stop ignoring his voice and OBEY. (James 1:22 But don’t just listen to God’s word. You must do what it says. Otherwise you are only fooling yourselves)

You can’t score a touchdown without running the field. I wanted to move on to the future without dealing with my past and dealing with what God was telling me to DO in the present.

By this time, the pastor had asked us to high five our neighbor and I had burst into tears of breakthrough! I had reached true surrender. I saw what life would be like if I kept holding on to that issue, and I didn’t like it! I went to bed that night excited to obey. I didn’t know what that meant at the time and it didn’t matter. All God wanted was my willingness to follow his lead and trust that there was something better on the other side. I loosened my grip, found strength and confronted the situation. I know my heavenly father was so proud of me because I was proud of myself….

Every season will bring new obstacles but I pray this story leaves you with a fresh desire to be obedient to WHATEVER God may be telling you to do.. Only YOU know what that is.. My story is still being written but I know I want to live it with two hands wide open, lifted to the sky. Good bye fauxbedience, center stage is obedience… I challenge you to do the same :-)

Love, Amy Rigdon xox

When The Honeymoon Phase Is Over…

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The beginning of a new relationship is sweet, exciting, and passionate to say the least. You can’t keep your mouth shut about how BOMB your new man/woman is. You can’t stop thinking about them. EVERY little thing they do is just so “cute” to you. You re-read their text messages over and over like it’s the greatest poem you’ve ever read. Your heart skips a beat when they walk into a room. The thought of you guys NOT living happily ever after is ABSURD and just down right ridiculous. You’re committed and FEEL like you want to spend of your life with this person…awww (how sweet and romantic..)

And than the honeymoon ends and reality sets in….

Real life happens and you realize that things aren’t as easy as you anticipated. The initial “high” you had has worn off and you’re no longer on cloud 9. Your feet are now on the ground and you learn that great relationships don’t just “happen” but that they take hard work, love and a kind of commitment that surpasses mushy, lovey, dovey, emotions. You learn that it”s about sticking it out regardless of how you FEEL. You learn that there are days when you FEEL madly in love with him/her and then there are days where you question whether or not you made a mistake by even entering a relationship with them…

I remember feeling that way about God when I first got saved about 3 years ago. ALL I wanted to do was learn more and more about Him and who He was. I was jobless, friendless, and manless and had all the time in the world yet I was SO joyful because I got to spend all this time with my new found love. I would literally spend HOURS listening to sermons back to back because I wanted to learn as much as I possibly could. I remember waking up feeling anxious and excited to read the bible (its amazing how God will change your desires). I was on fire and my heart was all His. I was at a place where I was so in love with Him that I would be willing to do WHATEVER He said. If He would of told me to pack my bags and move to Zimbabwe, I would of done it, no questions asked…

3 years later I’m still madly in love with God but I would be lying if I said that that love FEELS the same as when I first got saved. I would often pray and beg God to get me back to that place again where I was wide-eyed and bushy tailed and wanting to go wherever He lead Me..

LOVE surpasses the honeymoon phase when everything is exciting and your FEELINGS for the object of your affection is on level 10. As with a relationship with a guy/girl, our relationship with God often starts out in the “honeymoon” phase until we begin to get comfortable. WE stop pursuing Him like we once did. We get complacent with just reading the bible on Sundays and hearing a 20 minute sermon. We no longer pray and talk to God everyday like we did in the beginning. Instead of being bold and on fire, we allow our fire to dwindle down and become lukewarm Christians who just go through the motions.

If I can be real, I personally am at a place where God is teaching me the true definition of commitment. He’s teaching me how to push past how I FEEL and pursue Him regardless. Honestly, sometimes I don’t feel like praying. Sometimes I don’t feel like reading my bible. Sometimes, I don’t FEEL like going to church. Sometimes I don’t feel like going around and telling people my testimony and the power of Jesus. Sometimes I don’t FEEL like blogging. Sometime I don’t FEEL like being pure.. But the bottom line is this Mathew 16:24- “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.” That means that my FEELINGS and what I “felt” like doing, were no longer relevant the day I decided to follow Jesus. It means that through Gods GRACE, I am now submitted to His will..It’s no longer about (insert your name here)…Its about HIM..

You maybe in a season right now where you feel like your relationship with God is DRY. You know scripture, you know how to pray and you know church yet you don’t FEEL the presence of God like you once did. You feel as if your prayers are hitting the ceilings and nothing is moving or changing. Sorry but I don’t have a deep motivational message that’s gonna all of a sudden make you FEEL the presence of God but I will say this…

Your love relationship with God should go PAST a good feeling. Love is self denial. It’s commitment. It’s discipline. It’s doing what you don’t FEEL like doing. It’s holding on even when it feels like your holding on to thin air. It’s worshipping God even when you FEEL like He isn’t listening and is sending your prayers to His spambox. It’s giving even when you’re broke and fearful about how you’re going to pay your rent. Love isn’t a “good feeling”. It’s a deep, supernatural sacrificial action word that surpasses tingly emotions. So I encourage you to keep seeking. Keep reading. Keep pursuing God…even when you don’t FEEL like it. Yes, the honeymoon phase may be over but all that means is that it’s time to grow into a deeper relationship with our amazing God….a relationship that surpasses those sweet, tingly feelings that you once had <3

Love yall! xox

 

A Jesus Groupies Diaries: The Five Heartbreaks…

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Having so many heartbreaks is probably one of the main reasons I decided to give my life to Christ. Period.
I’m not ashamed to say that it was not by some strong physical or spiritual force, or an individual Bible verse that changed my heart. Plain and simple I was tired of being hurt, used and disrespected by men, I couldn’t take it anymore, and if you ever had your heartbroken before, you know the feeling, its like your ENTIRE body aches….
Ached when “he” called and said he was engaged and getting married to another woman. “Wait, what?! Aren’t we currently dating?”
 Ached when “he” had a child with someone else.
Ached when the day after “he” broke up with me, his ex-fiancee was on the scene looking like not a day has gone by since their last encounter.
I could feel my heart becoming tatted, torn and  turning an ugly shade of purple and black but  my solution to this heartbreak diagnosis wasn’t to give up dating completely, (of course not, why would I do that? A man was one of my greatest treasures to posses!!!!). No. My solution was just to find another man who I “thought” would make me feel better until the wounds from  Dudes A-Z healed. If you’ve been there, I know you can relate but he problem is, it just never measures up…well at least for me, it didn’t..
 We were meant to be completed by God and God alone. The desire to be loved and wanted isn’t a sin. It is how God wired and programmed us, but we are meant to fill that hole up with the love of our Lord and Savior Christ who earnestly wants you to fall in love with him. Him 1st! Having a husband is biblical and if it is ordained by God, favor from Him is doused over your relationship. Sex is the gift that says God isn’t a prude but He wants us to wait on Him. I believe its worth it, and although I haven’t experienced it myself yet, I am seeing it in action right now through my sisters in Christ and watching their relationships with the opposite sex flourish. God’s way works, don’t be fooled by “Hollywood”, His “Holy word” truly outlines love in the most romantic way you can dream of.
 
But back to me…
I remember crying at the altar one Sunday after an encounter with the Holy Spirit and hearing a sermon entitled “The Way God Sees Us”.. I said to God in that moment of desperation. “I vow to you, if you heal me, if you heal these wounds, I will give my life and body to you as a living sacrifice”. I was determined to see this vow through… (sounds pretty good and spiritual right?
But there was one problem… MY FLESH and my selfishness..
I sinned after this in a way that broke my heart. I thought during the healing process, me. my exes and boos could still be friends. I would still go to church on Friday nights for our Young Adult Ministry, but pack a bag and go to Dude E house for a sleep over. I stated to him clearly that we wasn’t going to be having any sex as I flashed my celibacy ring in his face, and although he told me he had needs and he wasn’t going to ignore him, I continued to be around him. (I will go more in depth about Christians women mixing with unbelievers at another time) but this was my BIG mistake. Once you have a standard, just know that it comes with a major commitment..  Of course he wasn’t going to take my demands for not having sex seriously… I myself wasn’t taking them seriously. I was up in his bed with lingerie talking about “I am saved and I aint having sex”…. but of course.. we ended up having sex!!
My heart broke. It hurt so bad, The disappointment I felt is indescribable. I knew in that moment that this could never happen again. I needed to give this Christian life my FULL heart or nothing at all.  Ya see, the thing about sin is this, if you keep at it, there will come a day where you no longer feel convicted about it. Your heart becomes hardened to God and His word.  If I would have continued to have sex, the conviction of the Holy Spirit would have started to fade. I was going to now deliberately turn my face away from God.  I probably would of been in the same positions I was in before I cried at the altar… I knew  that I couldn’t let sin deceive me. Not again…
 Remember, your walk with the Lord is ALL or nothing.
Matthew 16:24 (NLT) ” If any of you want to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross and follow me”
Matthew 7:13-14 ” The highway to hell is broad and its gate is wide for many who choose that way, but the gateway to life is very narrow and the ONLY A FEW ever find it”.
Jesus for real, only a few???
Christianity is an everyday walk, it isn’t a sprint to the finish line.  It took me months to really lay down my bad habits like drinking excessively when I had a bad day, watching pornography whenever I was aroused or bored, keeping in contact with Tim, Don and Henry whenever I got lonely, gossiping with friends, being over critical (the Lord is still working with me in this area), cursing and most importantly my purity.  It wasn’t all deliberate. I just let the Holy Spirit over time do its job to transform me.
Lets be real, the process wasn’t pretty. I cried and cried some nights about my relationships, and being alone. I hated the weekends! Even my female friendships was a MESS. I was friendless and manless. It was rough. But to be honest it still isn’t always pretty. It can be difficult sometimes to watch everyone around you have someone and be all in love and you’re just standing around like a square, or so it seems.
 It can hurt.
But those are feelings. Feelings are temporary and fleeting. I had to learn that if I prayed to Jesus to heal me, then obviously I have a faith in him, therefore I needed to apply that same faith to believe what He said in His word about finding the gates of heaven. I wanted to be apart of few that find His gate no matter how rough it was getting there.  I had to believe ALL of what the Bible said or believe nothing that the bible said. Its simple.
I prayed for friends and He blessed me in that area in ways greater than I could of  dreamed. We aren’t perfect, but I can say I never knew friendship could be this beautiful. I sometimes cry, because I am humbled by their love.  But even in all that, it STILL  takes WORK and faith in Him..
Honestly, the journey gets difficult and the process was downright hard..There were many lonely nights and tear stained pillows but I can honestly sit here and say that I’ve come to really love and value myself. I’ve come to realize that I am worth too much to let anyone undo the work and transformation that He has already DONE.. I found true love in Him.. How can I ever look back??
If you are hurting or in despair for any reason (not just because of men) but for any reason AT ALL, I encourage you to lean on God for strength no matter how you FEEL. Take your frustrations to Him. I know through EXPERIENCE that He is the best seamstress I have ever met. He has knit my heart back together and I am never looking back, I am picking up my cross with my eyes fixated on him, even through the tears, fighting the lures of sin everyday.. and  I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that when I receive my crown it will ALL be worth it.  Have faith in it! 
I pray you be blessed. 
Ken.

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Why You Can’t Afford To Be Single And Salty…

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I don’t have many regrets. I’m a firm believer in the fact that everything I’ve been through (the good, the bad, and the ugly) was ALL worth it simply because it made me who I’m today…But there is one regret that I do have..

I regret wasting so much time being bitter about being single and worrying about who I’m gonna marry, rather than spending that time being content in Jesus, and SERVING LIKE CRAZY.

Thank God, it isn’t too late and I finally got a grip but all that worry and “saltiness about my singleness” has caused me to be so passionate about us women not sitting around waiting for our “Adam” to wake up or our “Boaz” to come through on a white horse and whisk us away into in the sunset. I had to come to a realization that when I die, God isn’t going to ask me about the ring on my finger… He’s going to ask me about HOW I treated and submitted to the man who put it there.. He’s going to ask me about my heart. He’s going to ask me about how I loved those around me (friends, family, and strangers). He’s going to ask me about who I discipled here on this earth and did I help bring them to Christ. He’s going to ask me about what I did with all of the gifts, talents, and resources He’s  given me. He’s going to ask about me about my submission to the holy spirit  what I did for Him here on this earth to bring glory to His name..

In the end, when your time here on this earth is up, that’s ALL that’s gonna matter..

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A KIngs Love Convos Webisodes! (Watch First Episode)

Hey loves! So if you follow me on FB, you already probably know about this new web series that I’ve been working on called ” A Kings Love Convos”. Its basically a show to promote the love of Christ and help women (including myself) give a practical understanding of the word of God, and how it applies to everyday life circumstances! Im super duper excited for it to finally be out!! (It took forever lol) New episodes will be up every MONDAY AT 7:30PM.. So subscribe, like, share, all that good stuff! love yall! xox

Here’s the first episode on “Heart Surgery”— What God does to you when you ask Him to come into your heart and truly surrender your life to Him.. “You can debate my testimony but you cant debate my theology”- xox

Who Or What Are You Bowing Down To?

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Your child has been kidnapped. You’re devastated and heartbroken. You’re literally willing to give the BEST you have to save them including your life savings. You’re even willing to trade places and die for them… Your kid has been found and saved but when he/she got home, they decided to run away and go back to their kidnappers… How heartbroken, confused and bewildered would you be?? That’s what it’s like when we choose to RUN to things that enslave us after God gave HIS ALL to free us. That’s what its like when we make IDOLS out of “things” or “people” and as a result put ourselves back in bondage.

So what’s an idol?? ANYTHING or ANYONE that you look to for fulfillment and gratification OTHER than God. Anything or ANYONE that has more say so in your daily decision making process other than Jesus…

“Idolatry” is usually one of those sins that we kinda just sweep under the rug and not really pay much attention to. Lately God has seriously been showing me some “idols” in my life that I never considered to be a problem. Please be mindful, that you can turn ANYTHING into an idol.. Even good Godly things like marriage, relationships or even ministry…

God had to show me how much I’ve been making an idol out of SOCIAL MEDIA. Yes, He had to show me that I was trading in the presence of God for the presence of nonsense on my timelines. I would wake up in the morning and the first thing I did, WAS NOT praise Him for waking me up another day, it was checking my Facebook and Instagram..  I would stop in the middle of prayer or bible reading when my phone went off, JUST to check a message. Before I went to bed, I wasn’t praying and pouring all my cares out onto Him for that day, instead I was scrolling my newsfeed and stalking folks. (don’t front, we all have done it at one point or another lol) The point is, my social media accounts DICTATED my actions. I could of easily justified it which is tried to, by saying how much I use social media to minister to people which I do.. But the bottom line is that I was spending WAY more time on Facebook than in the word of God ..

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