Jesus Groupies Diaries : A Quick Lesson On Forgiveness..

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My daughter has never meet her biological father. During the time she was conceived, I perceived us to be together. Less than two months pregnant, he asked that I get an abortion. I refused wondering why should I give up my blessing? Well turns out he was already married with two kids. Fast Forward..no contact, a few marriages and baby mamas later on his part, He still has not seen/talked/held his daughter. My daughter is now FIVE. Asking about her father. Why don’t I have what other familes have mommy? I was NOT READY..but she is. Over the past two years, I have kept in contact with him sporadically and I’ve seen that her father has matured, improved, and made some great turnarounds in his life. A few days ago, they finally spoke. Oh the innocence of a child. No soon after the first phone call, she draws “I LOVE MY DADDY!” and places it on the fridge. -funny how a five year old can teach you about FORGIVENESS…..

By Tiarra Walker (tiarra.t.walker@gmail.com)

Mathew 11:25- And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins. “

A Woman’s Weakness: Male Attention…

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Let’s be honest. The FEELING of being WANTED is a great feeling even if it’s by people you’re not really interested in. It gives us a false sense of empowerment and control to know that this “person” is enamored by our beauty and has an attraction towards us and if we’re not getting that “attention”, we’ll go out and seek it. We’ll go and seek that validation through posting “sexy” Facebook pics, chasing down that man, or simply flirting.. Saved or unsaved, we’ve all been there at some point whether we would like to admit it or not. I’ll be the first one to raise my hand and say I have.🙋

“ATTENTION” is alot of women’s weakness. We’ll entertain guys who we KNOW are nowhere near Gods best and who is nothing more than a distraction..

But why is it so hard to let go???

It’s because we LIKE the attention. We like the pursuit. We like the feeling of being wanted. And the reality of it is, you’re USING this person to fill a void. You’re USING this person as a benchwarmer. Some of us know for a FACT that God has us in a season of isolation where He just wants us all to Himself but are trying to hold God’s hand with our left, and a random guy’s hand with our right…

God wants BOTH hands completely open ready to receive all of Him. Let go of your idol of needing “attention”. Dig deep and find out where that NEED is coming from and ask God to heal you. It may stem from daddy issues or may stem from self worth issues. Its AMAZING the things the holy spirit reveals to you once you ask Him to show you your OWN heart. (It wont be pretty but its such an amazing healing process). Some of us don’t know how to be ALONE. You may say that “God is enough” but if God looked through your text conversations with men who you know He told you weren’t “the one” would it show that He indeed is enough? Be real with YOURSELF. What is it that’s really keeping you latched on? Whatever “it” is, lay it down at His feet. Its gonna be hard. Its gonna be uncomfortable but so is growth. It may hurt. It may feel weird at first but NO amount of man given attention can compare to Gods unconditional love…

I’m in a season where I’m praying that I would become BFFS with God. I don’t want to fill any voids with ANYTHING or ANYONE (friends included). I’m ready for growth, for change, for complete dependence on God to make me feel beautiful and loved, not a human.

“For your Creator will be your husband; the LORD of Heaven’s Armies is his name! He is your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel, the God of all the earth.”- Isaiah 54:5

“‘You must love the LORD your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind.’-Matthew 22:37

“Do not put your trust in princes, in human beings, who cannot save.”-Psalm 146:3

Its a long journey but the destination makes it more than worth the trek of God pruning your heart, breaking you & exposing those deep issues that you never knew existed. Take the journey. ❤️

Love yall! Xo

If You Never Hear The Words “Will You Marry Me?”

What if You Never Hear Those Words

What if you never hear the words “will you marry me”. What if God came down tonight and told you that a husband and being a wife was not something He had in store for you but something greater.

Would you quit serving Him? Would your prayer life come to an end? Would you jump off a bridge? Would you still go to church? Would you still seek Gods face?

Yes, I know I’m being “extra” but the truth is God doesn’t owe us a man and some of us are basing our entire existence around this ONE moment…When Mr. Right will get down on his knee, ask us to be his wife and whisk us off into the sunset to live happily ever after. We start off our statements with “when I meet my husband” as though life suddenly starts when we have a ring on our finger.

If its one thing God did in me this past year is pop my little fairytale, Disney land bubble. The bubble of perfection and fantasy that most of us women have when it comes to what marriage TRULY is about. What the Hollywood movies don’t show is the arguments, the flaws, the tears, the brokenness, the two people both having jacked up pasts and having to undo ALL of the garbage they’ve picked up along the way… and they DEFINITELY don’t show Jesus HAVING to be at the center of it.

I think we kind of adopted that “fairytale” idea of thinking and just put a Christianized twist to it. Instead of calling him “prince charming” we call him “Boaz”. Instead of calling our selves a princess we call ourselves “Ruth”. But the reality is Boaz was a mere man. He was not JESUS. He was not perfect. He had flaws, and I’m sure he had issues, just like every other great man mentioned in the bible.

We cannot put our life on hold for a ring because in all honesty, it may not happen. I know that is not the most popular thing to say but that is the REALITY. We can “declare and decree” all day long that this is our year to get married but ultimately our love lives are in God’s hand and I honestly believe with all my heart that His desire is for us to be so enamored and SO in love with Him that marriage would be the icing on our cake and not what we’re waiting on to complete us.

Francis Chan is probably one of my FAVORITE preachers and authors (Please read Crazy Love, it’ll change ya life!) because he focuses on loving God and our lives being a reflection of that. His sermons are really what helped me to start thinking about eternity and the fact that I have work to do here on this earth and I can’t afford to just sit here and waste time focused on anything that is temporary. The reality is, I can DIE tomorrow. (I know someone is reading that and saying “why would you say that” lol) but it’s the truth. That is the hardcore truth. I can die tomorrow as a SINGLE woman. How would I have wanted to spend my last days on earth? Using my gifts to bless other women or complaining about my relationship status? I get caught up sometimes, not gonna even lie, but when I start to think about that question, it quickly snaps me back to reality.

The bottom line is this. We cannot afford to waste anymore time moping around and complaining. Like, are we not aware of how more and more ratchet this world is getting? How crazy and evil these times are? Who else is gonna be the “light” in this world but US, His sons and daughters? How can we be the light and be purpose driven if our ONLY purpose is making down the altar. Heaven is the finish line, not the altar. Let’s stay focused. Lets use our gifts and talents to serve Him wholeheartedly. If you’re single, take FULL advantage of this time to just sit at His feet. Learn how to be alone with just Him. Enjoy life. Smile. Laugh. Enjoy life. Serve like crazy. Love on people like crazy. Give like crazy. CHOOSE to live life to the fullest for His glory with or without a ring.

Love Ya’ll! xox
Scripture References:

Since you have been raised to new life with Christ, set your sights on the realities of heaven, where Christ sits in the place of honor at God’s right hand.- Colossians 3:2

“You must not have any other god but me.”- Exodus 20:3

“Love the LORD your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind.”- Mathew 22:37
P.S – Marriage is a GIFT from God that He created for His glory. It’s just that we need to make sure that we’re always worshipping the creator and not His creation. If you’re at the place where you KNOW you’ve been making marriage an idol, confess it to God. Be real with Him, and ask Him to help you to be consumed by Him and not marriage. It’s a process. Don’t beat yourself up. xox

A Kings Love Convos: The Inner Woman…

 

Hey beautiful ladies! Check out this episode of “A Kings Love Convos” entitled “The Inner Woman”. So many times we focus on “rules” and the “outside appearance” of LOOKING holy but not really focusing on our hearts being transformed into the image of Christ. Not wearing makeup, or wearing skirts is not what makes us right with God, a heart renewed by His spirit is what makes us right with Him. Take a look and don’t forget to subscribe. Love ya’ll! xoxox

The Distracted LifeGuard..

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Imagine you’re on the beach chillin’ & soaking up the sun. Over in the ocean, you realize there are people who need help. Somehow the tidal waves got a little crazy and people were drowning. You panic and you look for a lifeguard. The lifeguard see’s whats going on, but he’s on his phone scrolling through Facebook. He’s on Youtube and Instagram not really paying attention and on his job.

You’re astonished. Angry. Confused. “Are you serious? You’re just sitting there meanwhile people are drowning and fighting for their life and you’re main concern is how many people “liked your picture”? Dude. Really? ” Part of you wants to smack him but the other part of you is just too worried about those people who are crying out for help. Every second counts at this point.. Its literally life or death. These people are about to drown…

And they do.

After 10minutes of people going crazy & fighting to stay afloat, the waves end up being too strong and too powerful. They’re gone. They’ve drowned.

So many of us are that distracted lifeguard. We have the lifelines which is Jesus and prayer. We have the tools & the resources to help save people. But we’re TOO distracted by “life” to even care. (Goodness, this post is convicting me). Ask yourself this question and BE honest: How much time do you spend praying for OTHER people to get saved compared to the time you spend on social media? How much time do you spend praying for OTHER people and caring for their soul, even your own family?

There are people drowning in sin. Drowning in depression, self hatred, suicide, hopelessness, brokenness and fear but we’re too content with just going to church on Sunday and fulfilling our quota for the week. This is not to criticize or judge anyone (I have been so guilty of this myself) but its to really make us evaluate what in the world we are doing.

Like that lifeguard sitting in a chair on his iPad, we too are distracted by meaningless things while people are literally dying. We’re too focused on “finding our Adam”, or “chasing paper” or chasing success. For some of us, those people who are drowning are our family members. Whens the last time we really sat there and prayed for “those” family members who drive us up the wall and who we can’t stand?

When people are drowning, every single second counts. A lifeguard can’t afford to be distracted. You sis, are many people’s lifeguard. There are people who God specifically & strategically placed in your life whose salvation maybe connected to YOUR prayer life. Your obedience and your focus is not only about you, its about the people AROUND you. You may be the ONLY person in someone’s life that even believes in the power of prayer. You maybe the ONLY person that your boss knows that would ever think to pray for him (no matter how much of jerk YOU may think he is).

No shade and not being critical but we all really need to step it up. This world is getting darker and more twisted by the second. People are dying. People are drowning. The power of Jesus is the ONLY hope. We have that power in us. Lets use it. Log off Facebook. Stop worrying about your “Adam”. Get on your knees and pray like people’s lives depended on it because the truth is….

It does.

Pray. love. Give. Serve. Tell the world about who He is. He is our only hope.

Love yall! Xox

Before You Pressure A Man To Be Your “Everything”…..

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Understand that he is HUMAN. Yes he may be a fine God fearing man but he is still growing and learning just like you. Understand that a man was not designed to cater to your every need and to shuck & jive just to please you, but his PURPOSE is to please God FIRST and through him pleasing God will be able to love you the way God intended. Understand that he is not perfect and will make mistakes. Understand that he needs grace and prayer just like YOU do. Understand that he is a man with FEELINGS, FEARS, and INSECURITIES and may not always measure up to Gods standard because he is a FLAWED human.

Understand that your “boaz” or your “future boaz” may be a blessing, but he isn’t your savior and didn’t die on a cross for your sins. One of his assignments maybe to be your husband but his assignment was and IS, NEVER to be your God…

So I say all this to say, look to God to make you whole. Seek God for validation and security. Even the godliest of “godly men” will NEVER be able to complete you and fully satisfy your souls cravings. Sometimes I forget that. Sometimes I put WAY too much pressure on my guy to be EVERYTHING a “christian boyfriend” is ” supposed” to be. Sometimes I forget that his job isn’t to please me but to please GOD and be the man that Gods called HIM to be for His glory. Sometimes I get too clingy…

And then the holy spirit reminds me that my wholeness is found in Jesus Christ alone.. Not in a man. Not in a relationship status. Not in ANYTHING else other than the cross. Being clingy is not cute. Lol When you try to force someone to be your everything, you become a burden instead of a blessing because you’re placing all of this extra pressure on him that he was never meant to carry. He maybe Christian but he is not Christ. Love him like crazy. Pray for him. Respect him. Show him grace. Be patient. Forgive and most importantly let God be God in YOUR life. Make God your “everything”, not him. ❤️

Xoxo

When You Entertain The Devil and Don’t Even Realize It..

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No this isn’t some spooky post to get you afraid of the “little red guy with horns and pitchfork running around chasing people”.. This is about something much more realistic.. Something that we ALL go through whether we’re aware of it or not and whether we believe it exists or not..

A little something called spiritual warfare..

Yes hun. God has a plan for your life and its a good plan. I can’t promise that the path will be easy… It will probably be a path that will challenge you but most importantly it will be a path that DEVELOPS you. Its a path that He wills for all His girls go walk in… A path of love, purity, self-denial, holiness, peace, joy, servanthood and light. Its a beautiful path to walk on once you find it by surrendering your life to Him.

Sounds great right?

There’s a flip side to it though.

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The Pretty Trash Can..

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Soooo… you have this friend. Every time you guys get together, she complains about this HORRIBLE smell coming from her apartment, not to mention there are tons and tons of fly’s EVERYWHERE. It’s making her sick and you have no idea what to say in response to her smelly fly problem other than “ew”…

A week later, you guys hang out but this time at her apartment. You notice a HUGE pile of trash in the middle of her living room and it all makes sense where her house “problems” are coming from. For some odd reason she doesn’t seem to realize that the PILE of trash is what’s SMELLING up the place and causing all of these maggots to spring up but instead of her cleaning up the mess, she steps out, goes to the 99cents store to pick up some air freshener and fly tape….

You just give her the blank stare…

This is an example of what A LOT of our lives look like. We complain and focus on the problems that stem from the trash that’s IN our hearts and instead of CLEANING up the trash through giving our hearts to Jesus and allowing Him to cleanse us, we just try to spray some air freshener on it instead of getting to the ROOT of the issue. We just try to put a little flin-stone band-aid on a wound that needs Continue reading

The “Boaz” Myth…

The Boaz Myth

Can I be honest? There is NOTHING like being with a God fearing man.. A man who pushes you closer to Jesus every chance he gets.. A man who loves you flaws and all and whose commitment you never have to question.. Its SUCH a blessing to have your man be your biggest cheerleader& who wants nothing more than to see his lady be the woman that God has called her to be..

Its a gift. Its a blessing. But its not EVERYTHING..

Being in relationship can be ROUGH. Its not all sunshine, rainbows and lollipops.. The world portrays relationships as this wonderful merry go around that always ends up in a happily ever.. Unfortunately i feel like that same mentality has seeped into us (the church) and women think that by waiting on a God fearing man, its gonna be smooth sailing.. We OVER ROMANTICIZE meeting “our boaz” as though he’s gonna be a dark skinned Jesus, sent to make us whole and take all our pain away (or whatever your preference might be lol)..

But the truth is.. Godly relationships are ROUGH if not rougher..

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A Jesus Groupie Diaries: Fake Obedience…

Amy Rigdon

In late August I went on a retreat upstate with the young adults group from my church. As soon as I got off the bus I had a HUGE smile on my face! I was going to be in nature, surrounded by people my age, do fun actives, make new friends and worship like crazy! I had a “yeah let’s do this” kind of attitude!!! (woo hoo!) Fun Fun Fun…..

Then for some reason,  out of nowhere, I started feeling discontent and shaken. I wasn’t as confident nor as excited as I had been.

Service began, the band started playing and I hit a wall. My heart felt so hard. I was singing but the words were empty. I felt everyone around me raising their hands, singing with passion. Yet I stood still, hands down, lips still. I closed my eyes and cried out to God “Hello, don’t you see me? I’m here in the middle of nowhere, smack dab in the middle of these woods, searching for you! Why do I feel so far from you?” Frustrated, I stood there motionless. Fortunately, I waited long enough to hear God say “Darling, let go.” I knew exactly what he meant. Deep in my heart I was holding on to something that I didn’t want to let go of. I was living a life of disobedience of as I would like to call it… FAUXBEDIENCE. I was reading the Bible, praying, having conversation with God but I had hit a wall…. 

Having a relationship with Christ isn’t about going through the motions. It’s about being open WITH your emotions. God wanted me to dig deeper…Reading the Bible and going to church wasn’t all God wanted from me. He wanted me to stop ignoring his voice and OBEY. (James 1:22 But don’t just listen to God’s word. You must do what it says. Otherwise you are only fooling yourselves)

You can’t score a touchdown without running the field. I wanted to move on to the future without dealing with my past and dealing with what God was telling me to DO in the present.

By this time, the pastor had asked us to high five our neighbor and I had burst into tears of breakthrough! I had reached true surrender. I saw what life would be like if I kept holding on to that issue, and I didn’t like it! I went to bed that night excited to obey. I didn’t know what that meant at the time and it didn’t matter. All God wanted was my willingness to follow his lead and trust that there was something better on the other side. I loosened my grip, found strength and confronted the situation. I know my heavenly father was so proud of me because I was proud of myself….

Every season will bring new obstacles but I pray this story leaves you with a fresh desire to be obedient to WHATEVER God may be telling you to do.. Only YOU know what that is.. My story is still being written but I know I want to live it with two hands wide open, lifted to the sky. Good bye fauxbedience, center stage is obedience… I challenge you to do the same :-)

Love, Amy Rigdon xox