How can it be that we can truly love Jesus and still be addicted to pornography? How can it be that we can love God, serve Jesus and truly, truly love Him, but still struggle with masturbation even though we know it’s wrong? How can it be that we can truly love God but can’t seem to stop having sex with that person who is not our husband or wife? How is it that we find ourselves asking for forgiveness from God for that certain sin AGAIN and again? How is it that it can seem like “we’re good” but when it comes to certain areas like our sexual purity ( I’m just using sex as an example. Everyone’s stronghold maybe different) there seems to be “that one” bad habit that feels impossible to break?
You can truly love Jesus with all of your heart and STILL struggle. *insert sarcastic gasp here*
Sometimes we think we get saved and all of a sudden all of our messed up ways of thinking and all of our struggles suddenly disappear. Think about it. If you got saved at 25 years old, you’ve basically spent a good 24 years thinking and living a certain type of way.
I personally have spent almost two decades thinking that there was absolutely nothing wrong with having premarital sex. It wasn’t until I got saved and started reading the bible that I found out that it was wrong. There are certain habits and images that are still probably embedded in me and my mind way back since I was a kid. Yea, those moments when you secretly snuck away and watched those “nasty channels” aka porn, or those times where you as a young curious teen experimented with touching yourself and discovered a whole new thing called masturbation? (Lets talk about the uncomfortable stuff). All of this stuff doesn’t just disappear on its own ( some stuff God does deliver you from overnight but other stuff may take some time) until we directly attack with the only thing that is stronger than these strongholds: the power of JESUS CHRIST.
One of the realest scriptures to me in the bible is Romans 7:15-23. Paul says:
I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. 16 But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. 17 So I am not the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
18 And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. I want to do what is right, but I can’t. 19 I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. 20 But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
21 I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. 22 I love God’s law with all my heart. 23 But there is another power within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me.
This resonates with me so much and has comforted me so many times when I’ve failed over and over again in this walk. I have moments where I just wanna slap myself and ask “what’s wrong with you?” How can it be that I have all of this wisdom to preach on Facebook and Instagram yet still struggling with this sin over and over again that if exposed would make me look like the biggest hypocrite? How is it that we can have every intention to do right and love Gods word with all of our heart but still find ourselves in these predicaments that make us ask ourselves “How did I get here?”
The dope thing about this passage is that at the end, Paul provides an answer. Romans 7:24-25” Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord.”
I can’t fight my sin on my own. I’am not strong enough. YOU can’t fight and overcome your sin on your own. You are not strong enough.
We must understand that without Jesus, we all are SLAVES to sin. Before I got saved, SIN was my master by default. There is no middle grind. Sin was natural to me. Sin is natural for all of us. It’s apart of our human nature. This is why we needed Jesus. This is why as I stumble and get back up, I am so much more appreciative of the cross, the grace of God and of the forgiveness of God made available through His Son Jesus.
There is so much to write about concerning this topic but I’m gonna end here and maybe just write a part 2 to this ;). Whatever you are struggling with, stop struggling with it. Stop trying to fight a battle that is too big for you. You must depend on Jesus and Jesus alone to help you overcome that struggle or that sin that you can’t seem to shake. We must attack our sin not with “trying harder” but in trusting Him more and by renewing our mind with the word of God. The battle is mental before it is physical. A lot of us are chained physically because we’re chained mentally. Do not allow the enemy to bombard you with guilt, shame, and condemnation or hopelessness. There have been times when I would be tempted to accept a certain stronghold in my life, as “it is what it is” and that maybe there’s no hope. Those were nothing but lies of the enemy trying to get me to give up…
Put on the armor of Jesus Christ and don’t quit. We’re all fighting battles..some are just more visible than others. Stay the course. Depend on Christ alone. Remember your position as a daughter of the King.
Love yall! xox