Remember when you were at the altar during that one church service and you begged God to break you? Remember when you sang about the spirit of God leading you “where your trust was without borders?” Remember when you cried out to God and told Him to lead you and guide you according to His will? Remember when you prayed and asked God to protect you from anything or anyone that wasn’t sent by Him? Remember when you prayed that God would help you to love people better? Remember when you ask God to hide you and to destroy any relationships that pulled you away from Him? Remember when you cried and asked Him to use you for His glory?
While we may have forgotten the prayers we’ve prayed in those moments, God hasn’t. And while we often think it was our “deepness” and spirituality that caused us to utter those prayers, it wasn’t. It was the holy spirit interceding on our behalf giving us the words to pray …
Romans 8:26-27 Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God.
The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.
(James 5:16) but God is the One who determines how He answers those prayers. And I want to encourage you to not throw in the towel just because God hasn’t answered you in the way you EXPECTED Him to. We can’t pray for “brokeness” and just expect to wake up “broken”. We can’t pray for patience and just expect to wake up “patient”. We can’t pray for God to remove what isn’t His will, and than question God when doors close and people leave. Answered prayer often comes through the form of PROCESSES. Fruit doesn’t just appear, it needs to be cultivated under the right conditions. God has implanted the seed which is the word of God in our hearts, He waters that seed and He allows us to endure trials and tribulations to help bear fruit.
Often times, (especially as women) we want everything to always be cute and pretty all the time. We don’t want the tears, the sacrifice, or the pain. None of us do. And if we’re not careful, we can get caught up in the emotionalism of Christianity and not the reality of Christianity which is a calling to die to ourselves. If we’re not careful, we can get caught up in the APPEARANCE of crying out to God for more of Him but deep down refusing to go through the proccess in which God may lay out for us to go through. Though crying out to God at an altar is great, understand that there needs to be an altar that we go to daily in our hearts. Understand that when you pray for God to break you, use you, mould you, change you, He will use life and it’s many trials to answer your prayers….
Dear friends, don’t be surprised at the fiery trials you are going through, as if something strange were happening to you. 1Peter 4:12
So I encourage you to remember what you prayed for. Remember when you asked God to make you more like Him. Remember when you told God that your life was His. Remember when you asked God to hide you. Did we really mean it when we prayed it or was it just our emotions in that moment?
Know that it will get extremely difficult at times, but there is a future glory awaiting us if we do not faint…